Day 39

I did not take my HCG shot this morning. It was not a good day all the way around...

Day 38- VLCD

Breakfast:
water

Lunch:
grilled onion burger
roma tomato

Dinner:
(don't remember..??)

Day 37- VLCD

I don't remember what the scale said this morning. I only remember that I did not like it. I started thinking about how I could possibly have gained so much- I really did watch what I ate yesterday. I forgot about 2 other things that happened yesterday that has always fluctuated my weight.

1) I HAD to use my excema medicine. I try my hardest to go without it, but there comes a point that I HAVE to use it!

2) I normally use Aveeno lotion. Yes, I know we are not supposed to use any at all, but with my excema- I have to use something. Baby oil was not cutting it! My aveeno wasn't home with me, so I used a different brand. I am thinking this was a mistake!! :O

I know that I always gain some after I use my medicine- but I didn't think about switching lotions. The bad thing is that I had to use my medicine again today. I did refrain from using lotions today though.

Breakfast:
water

Lunch:
1 hard boiled egg
1 egg white
5 crackers

Dinner:

Day 36- VLCD

Today went o-kay. I had a full day of work with Scentsy. I apparently burned off a lot of calories because I started feeling sick and light headed. I ended up eating what they had there which was pasta with chicken in it and a breadstick. I am already scared to get on the scale tomorrow- my weight is up tonight. Oh- and I had a soda today. I have not had a full can of soda since being on my diet. It was a diet cherry 7 up. Maybe I am just retaining water? A girl can dream- right?

Chocolate wins!

I'm not sure if I will ever eat chocolate again. No, really- I mean that! After eating some last night, my stomach hurt sooooooooooo bad!! My body is not used to having that junk and it revolted. I was finally able to go to sleep, but I did that curled up into a ball swearing off chocolate! lol

I did gain .2 lbs this morning. Another bad thing.... :-\

I am a bit worried about today. I will be working on a Scentsy event from about 1pm to 10pm. I really want to stay busy while I am there so that I won't be tempted to eat. We will have dinner there.... maybe it will be something I can eat! ;-)

Day 35- VLCD

Eating for the day....bad, bad, and more bad. Mostly involved chocolate! I still don't get why I torture myself. I mean, really? This is obviously why I am over weight to begin with. Why can I not kick my bad habits?

Beyond Frustrated with myself.

I did go walk 2.5 miles @ roughly 2.5 mph and I drank at least half a gallon of water.

Tomorrow is another day, right?

Day 34- VLCD

Well, today started off with good intentions. And then an emergency situation came up and I deviated from the plan. Will be back on track tomorrow though- PROMISE!!

Breakfast:
water

Lunch:
3oz grilled onion burger

Snack:
3-4 strawberries
5 crackers

Dinner: (off track)
1 smaller piece of pizza... I will pay for this in the morning- I KNOW! But, I was 45 mins from being home and it was 8pm and I was STARVING!!!

Hello Scale!!!!!!!!!!!

These last few days (okay- week) of cheating, I have cringed every morning when it was time to go get on the scale. A couple of mornings, I even tried to convince myself that I didn't need to weigh. Of course I did weigh, and of course...I did not like the results. Why torture myself you ask? I have no idea... I have ZERO will power!

I knew I did decent yesterday with the exception of the stinking orange soda. I still cringed at what the scale would say this morning. I mean- I did drink pretty close to pure sugar right at bed time. And, I was still up by 3.6 lbs. :O Yes, I know...HUGE ACK!!! I kept thinking of where I could have been had I not cheated...

I finally dragged myself out of bed and downstairs to the dredded scale. Imagine my SHOCK when it said that I had lost 3.8 lbs since yesterday!!!!! That actually puts me .2 lbs under where I was when I started my cheating!! Words cannot express my true excitement!!

Now, I just have to remember to keep moving forward!

YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Concepts to think about:
3.8 lbs is a lot to loose in one day, so I started thinking of the possible reasons why I might have lost that much in one day.

1) I had so much salt in my cheat days, that my body was retaining water. Once my sodium level decreased again I released some of the water.

2) I just got off my monthly cycle (TOM) I read that you will gain weight during that time, and then loose it.

3) I hadn't been drinking hardly any water the last few days. Yesterday I drank at least half a gallon. My water might have been holding onto some water because I wasn't giving it enough.

Really, the possibilities are endless- I am just glad it came off!

Bye bye soda...

Remember the orange soda from last night? Well, it kept tormenting me! Before I did something really stupid, I asked my sweet hubby to take it away or pour it out! Knowing me, I would gone to pour it out and tried to take "one last drink" so no, I cannot be trusted! lol Thankfully he moved it and it was no longer next to me tormenting me. Normally, I take my water to bed with me. Had I done that, I would have been fine.

Speaking of water and bed- I do recommend anyone to take water with them to bed. It helps me fight my night time cravings when I am still up, but on the computer or watching a show in bed with the hubby. Also, during the night I wake up thirsty. The water is right there. And first thing in the morning I am always ready to start drinking. I wait until after I weigh, of course- but I will have the bottle in hand ready for after scale. These are just other ways to get more water in during the day (and night!)

Day 33- VLCD

Man, I struggled again today!! But, I held off for the most part!! Would have done better had I been home this evening to eat dinner- but I was off couponing before the sales end tomorrow!

Breakfast:
Water


morning death trap- watched everyone else eat birthday cake. and MAN, did it look good!!!! But, I resisted!!

Lunch:
3oz grilled chicken breast
*tried to eat a roma tomato, but it tasted nasty! lol

Dinner:
Water

Late night temptation:
3 small drinks of orange soda. kicking myself for this- should have just poured it out!!

All in all, I think it was an okay day!

Finally a LOSS!!!

I just wanted to post that I woke this morning and I have lost a lb! It has been a few days since I saw the scale go DOWN, I was excited!! And more motivated to make it keep going down...... down....down!!!!

Yippee!!

Day 32- VLCD

Today was a little easier on me. I think I am missing the structure, and that is part of what is throwing me off? I am still determined to loose on this diet! The really bad thing is that the whole purpose of the HCG diet is to re-set your brain so it can process your food normally. I may have completely thrown off my re-set since I have not followed the diet like I was supposed to for a week now. But- I am going to follow this round out. I am planning to start another round on June 1, with my hubby doing the diet with me. I really think this will make it easier for me. He really tries to motivate me, but it is hard to listen to him when he gives me a 'look' as he is eating peeps and spaghetti! lol Not that it is his fault or anyone else's but my own. I just think it would be nice to do the diet along with him. We can support each other!

Breakfast:
water

Lunch:
crap

Dinner:
more crap!

Day 31- VLCD

I am really struggling with this diet right now. Never cheat- it makes it harder to get back on track.

Breakfast:
water

Lunch:
boiled egg

Dinner:
you don't want to know!

Day 30- VLCD

Today was a bit easier, but I am still struggling with cravings. I swear, there are certain times where it is not so great to be a female!

Breakfast:
water

Lunch:
1 hard boiled egg

Dinner:
subway sub about 4"

I know the sub was NOT on the diet. I have figured out that part of my problem is that I have GOT to eat my lunch! When I am busy and I don't eat it then, I think I will be okay. But then I end up hungry and just eat whatever (hence the subway). I didn't have a soda or chips, but the bread alone from the sub was bad enough!!

I need some encouragement... post, text, or e-mail me encouragements...PLEASE!!!


BTW- I have NOT liked the scale lately. I have gained back 3.2 lbs. NO FUN!! that in itself is some motivation to keep going. I don't have that much longer on this phase...I need to just get it DONE!!!

Day 29- VLCD

Today was a bit better. It would have been even better if someone would have either taken the left over Mexican with them...or thrown it away. I am so mad at myself. But when you are in that moment, that craving is so powerful. Hence the reason that I am fat. It really is the battle of the bulge. More times than not, I feel like it is a loosing battle. I am determined to not give up though!

Breakfast:
water

Lunch:
chips, queso, & salsa

Dinner:
Chips, queso, & Salsa... and a bit of beans and rice

Day 28- VLCD

UGH- I did NOT do well today. The TOM has taken over my body and it is a hard fight.

Breakfast:
Water

Lunch:
Chocolate

Dinner:
Mexican

yeah...no good.

Day 27- VLCD + Easter +

Today didn't go as bad as I expected. I kind of ate like I planned. I didn't eat on my diet, but didn't go over board either. Well, I didn't go over board in my eyes. I did have one piece of cake that I was not planning on. But, I am not going to fret on that. Also, my TOM came today and that might explain all the sugar cravings I had been/was having! lol I really tried to be somewhat good and think I did a pretty good job of that. If I can learn that I can still have the foods I like, just in smaller portions I would do much better off in life. I just never learned that until now!

Breakfast:
Water

Lunch:
3-4 bites potato salad
2-3 bites macaroni salad
6-7 crackers with spinach dip
2 bites of my healthy burger w/cheese
1 bite baked beans
1 cookie. the kind with icing on top. (no need to tell me!)
1 drink of sugar free kool-aid

Dinner:
3-4 very small pieces of ham
1 piece of carrot cake.
1 small sip of orange soda

You can see my day was carb-a-licious! I'm not going to be too hard on myself. I walked almost a mile and was active all day. Now, when I see what the scale says...THEN I will probably be hard on myself!

Day 26- VLCD

I was right, the scale didn't move that much (.04). But, at least it moved downwards! Maybe it will be nicer to me tomorrow! I am sure to burn some calories today. We are planning to go on 2 egg hunts, plus I have to clean and prepare food for me entire family to come over tomorrow! Tomorrow is going to be the day of doom! I have not decided if I am going to allow myself to cheat a bit or not. Really, I am just under from having lost a lb a day, so I would like to step it up to where I am loosing a lb a day. Maybe that means I won't cheat. I dunno! Send prayers my way!!

Breakfast:
Water

Lunch:
grilled hamburger
1/2 grapefruit

Dinner:
grilled chicken
roma tomato
apple

errr.... some candy :( I was filling eggs for our family egg hunt and was bad. dang it!

Day 25- VLCD

Today ran o-kay. I was glad to see that I didn't really gain anything after my bad day yesterday! I ate my lunch pretty late because hubby had some errands to run and I am not too knowledgeable in the grilling area. So, I also ate my dinner very late because we also had church tonight. I know it will somewhat affect what the scale says just because my body won't have as long to process the food. But, I needed to eat. I was feeling kinda sick...

Breakfast:
Water

Lunch:
grilled chicken
Strawberries

Dinner:
grilled onion burger
roma tomato

Day 24- VLCD R1P2W3

Today has been a super tough day as far as the diet is concerned. I didn't drink nearly enough water. And my food eating was terrible!!! I was craving sweets all day long. I believe my TOM may be heading this way. And now I sit, with a craving to eat something...anything...EVERYTHING and trying not to!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Breakfast:
a slight amount of water

Lunch:
1 whole boiled egg
1 white only from boiled egg
a few crackers 5 are okay, but not the 10 I ate and definitely NOT all at the same time

Snack:
bowl of cinnamon toast crunch...with 1% milk. (HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

I didn't eat anything else all day. I am sure that is part of the reason why I am having a hard time tonight. I am quite sure that I need to eat something. (healthy of course!)

Edit: I ended up eating the white only of a boiled egg before bed. Yeah, I suck! :{